I also had a call from Lornshill Academy to say they had £500 cheque for my family and I. My mum and I went to pick it up and get a tour around new school. I asked to see my guidance teacher Miss Dodds and it brought a lot of great memories back. We met in the corridor and it brought me to tears instantly. Doddsy was a great help and a friend throughout my highschool years. She would always listen to me and have great banter with. The reason i cried was kind of like i was so happy to see her but also sad as to go back to my youth when things were more simpler would be great. I also kinda felt bad that she hadnt seen me in years but was now seeing me with my oxygen on and showing signs that i have deteriorated. You never want people to see you like that. When returning home that day i then received another phone call from Lornshill this time the P.E department to say the money they raised at their sportathon to us which was a further £500. I was so overwhelmed for them to still want to donate more and to think of me. They said they couldnt think of anyone more that they would want to give it to.
I also have friends who live outwith Scotland who couldnt make my events who have requested ways to donate money. So i set up a page where they could donate and so far i have raised £80 from that so right now we are just over the £4000 mark.
This means so much to us. If my mum and dad stay in a b&b for the duration of my recovery 4weeks+ you are talking £40 a night. Then food and petrol each day. If there happens to be any money left over from the operation stay then i will use it for my future trips and hospital stays to Newcastle :) as i will have clinic regularly and will get treated there if i have any after operation complications.
Just thought i would write a bit about how i am feeling since i have been listed.
Its kind of strange as i actually feel like iv just started living , like meeting up with friends, visiting people i get butterflies as its so amazing, i see days out in a totally different light! It feels as though i have just become alive despite being at my most ill point.
I have so much positivity but at the same time so much fear....its a strange feeling. I keep fearing that i am not organised enough for it ....or how can i prepare my mum and dad. When i am having the operation will my mum and dad be coping in the waiting room while im under going 12 hour surgery. What if it takes ages for me to come off the breathing machines.
Theres still a few things i havent packed and sorted out, its so hard to get them things sorted when you are trying to live your life to the fullest,keep as well as possible, organising concerts and festivals your going to,trips out with friends haha!
I hope to be able to wear a tshirt like this one day.
I hope you have discussed with your family your wishes about organ donation.
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