Organ Donation Awareness!

The past couple weeks I have been in the Sun newspaper and also my local newspaper and a few online articles sharing my story of me waiting for a transplant. It has been done to raise awareness of how important it is to discuss your wishes to your family as many healthy organs are either buried or burnt to ashes when they could be used to save many lives!

 

https://www.organdonationscotland.org/news-events/brave-lisa-tells-of-wait-for-life-saving-transplant

http://www.alloaadvertiser.com/news/alloa/articles/2013/11/19/479198-alloa-woman-backs-campaign-for--organ-donors/

I have had many peoples support online with what I have been doing by sharing my story and I really appreciate it! Also the headlines say "Brave" I don't know if I would call myself brave. Being brave is when you choose to do something like jumping out of a plane or capturing a spider or jumping out in front of traffic to save someone. What I am dealing with I have no choice and I am S***ING it! So in my eyes I am not brave. There are more people who can be described as brave. Sometimes when I read peoples supportive comments online/via txt or when I read the articles, I forget its about me. Like it doesn't feel like all this is happening.

Since being listed for transplant I am still finding myself getting emotional. I find it really difficult seeing what this is doing to my close friends and family.
I often get really angry as I wish I didn't have to put them through this ( even though its not my fault) I still hate seeing them hurting and seeing the worried look behind their strong eyes. I find it hard talking bout it now to my younger cousins as most of all I don't want them to worry. Nor do I want to promise all the wonderful things we could do together if I get my lungs as I don't want to break a promise incase my call never comes.

Im often finding myself telling people advice or things I feel they need to know incase I am not their to give them it in the future. I know that sounds crazy but I am trying to think logically.

I know I am staring death in the face on and off and will  do so again in the future. But trying to make sure everyone around me is ok and will be if I had to pass is hard work. Mainly because once I am gone I know I cannot help them the way I could if I was here!! Feeling like this has really shown me that I am not ready to die. I have too many things to live for and too many people! It is unquestionably obvious that I don't want to die and nor am I scared. I am just not finished living yet.



https://www.organdonationscotland.org/register-now

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